I wish my life was as exciting as Balloon’s.
-not getting into things i want, but i actually worked hard for
-when i get let down by someone/something
-when i fail a test with high expectations of a good grade
-when i even consider teh possibility of a good outcome.
thats about it. its not much. because i’ve never been the type of person to expect much. i expect the worst. and when something good happens, im pleasantly suprised. but then again, its so rare. like those magical moments from the movies.
realizing i lost the sheet for english, which means i cna’t do the hw til i borrow it tomorrow at school, or find it tomorrow in school.
and then tiffany tells me she and amber got into beta. i didn’t get a call but i get the feeling i didn’t make it. great.
i don’t know. im losing so mcuh stuff these days. ugh.
i have an english test tomorrow too. ew.
im disappointed in myself.
so like yeah. this is the new song im covering, or atleast working on. theres the part where its like “im falling to pieces” like a zillion times and its really high, so i can’t sing it. well i tried. i have to go falsetto though. but i actually nailed it a few times. wish me luck:)
so like yeah. so me, jamie and like 2 other girls were in some hall or w/e w/ a cafeteria table. there was a phone. it rang and i picked it up. it was stephanie, jamie’s gf. so she told me to help her fold some oragami or something b/c she was sick? and then i helped them even though i didn’t know them very well. so like it was a regular school day. so i took my regents for bio and copied shelley’s geometry hw, went to library to study for regents, went to social studies (mrs. polanish), and went to other classes that were not in hs, but in like elementary school or dyker. so like at the end of the day, we gathered again to fold more origami. i think it was the same people, except one of the girl were now shelley wu. so for some reason, shelley and jamie had to kiss in order to create some kind of paper or something. so they did. and then they were talking about bio regents scores. they’re like “oh jenny didn’t get 99”. cuz apparently it was like super easy or something cuz tons of ppl got 90’s. so jamie asked me what i got. i told him i got an 83. he looked surprised, so i was like “you know im bad at science.” i thought he was gonna ignore me, cuz hes been doing htat since hs started. instead, he grabbed my arm, and wrote on it. he wrote “no your not.” i looked at him funny. he then wrote, “close your eyes.” apparently, he was gonna kiss me, but then i woke up. it was soo weird.
